Another Christmas without you....

We just had our 2nd Christmas without Keely. It never gets easier. I miss enjoying Christmas. I enjoy it with my family and love seeing the smiles on their faces but I miss the joy of Christmas. This joy I'm missing isn't just at Christmas though, it's all year round but harder on holidays with Christmas being the worst. We lit Keelys Christmas candle to show her presence. Everyone thinks of her throughout the day and mentions her. This year Shaely spent the night at her dads on Christmas Ever to wake up and spend Christmas morning with him. Low and behold Scott and I has the flu and spent Christmas Eve in bed. I feel Keelys presence in the eagle I seen flying above me while thinking of her of course 4 days ago, then I had on of the most beautiful dreams about her 3 nights ago. I miss her, I wish she was here running around excited for Santa, ripping open her presents. I seen so many things for her while I was out shopping. Strawberry Shortcake popped out at me everywhere or Mickey or Minnie Mouse and I would just play the hot dog song in my head. It's very hard not to buy something for her, I suppose I could but it would only be an empty feeling not being able to see her reaction, even at her age when she was here she would be excited to see something we bought her or a gift someone else bough her.
For now we have her little pink tree with 40 little white lights with butterfly ornaments, cupcake ornaments, stars from the coping centre and our new hope ornaments, anything that reminds us of her. We miss her and we can only dream of what Christmas is like in heaven.

Merry Christmas our pretty little angel! Xoxo Mommy & Daddy