The World Doesnt Stop For My Broken Heart

One entire month has passed since Keely has left me. The pain and the hurt is like nothing else along with the unforgotten emptiness. My many memories of Keely I have that I will treasure for the days, weeks and years to come. Her physical absence is what i suffer from. Each day I had with her I lived to the utmost fullest which has made it harder now to let go and move forward. Here I am sitting here thinking about Keely non stop each minute of everyday while all around me the world is still spinning and moving forward. People go back to work, back to their life, back to their families and become somewhat normal for them again. Everybody cares and everybody carries the loss of Keely but nobody witnesses the emptiness and the physical pain i have been left with. I was left in my own abyss to try and move forward with a hole in my heart. I feel like im trapped inside a snowglobe and looking out watching the world revolve around me, while in the meantime im standing still inside with this lonely secluded feeling of people standing, staring inside at me. Rather than it being a beautiful snowglobe to look at, its a trapped world where nobody wants to be. Each new day has to begin and end no matter how I am feeling. When Keely passed my world ended and came to a screeching hault and I just assumed the rest of the world would have done the same thing. Then I leave our home and realize people on the outside are moving, happy, laughing and enjoying their lives while I feel like I am just a hollow substance with bricks for feet, not even walking through life anymore just dragging my painful feet and this automatically secludes me back to my snowglobe. It makes me want to be back at home in our dark, motionless house. I want the world to just stop moving and recognize that our beautiful, innocent, precious Keely has left this earth and it cannot go on the same without her here.
I realize one day my life will slowly take the course of moving forward but it wont be without my first thought being of her as I awake and when I lay down to sleep each night. I will eventually have to go back to work and I cant fathom how I will be able to work and carry her loss each and every single day and get anything accomplished. Things that once meant something to me are nonetheless as important as they once were. This hole in my heart will always remain in tact and never shrink in size but one day apparently I will build important, meaningful things around it to soften it. The day I see my Keely again is when that hole and void will be filled and all my pain will have vanished!
Love & Miss Our Little Keely Bunns every single minute of every single day xoxoxo Mommy Loves You Bunns!!